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Life Until Now

by Honey Pot

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1.
All The Time 02:52
Love of light Like i'm inside out And at some point I will unfold To feel alright Is that what you want all the time? To be in my life Is that what you want all the time? Come outside I wanna die I've lost my words And I think that would help Spent my day thinking In the back of my room The more that I think The more I feel like it's a tomb Keep noticing The little things Like how weak I am In comparison.
2.
Old Me 02:16
You said that I'm not me But someday I will be I think about it too much If that's what you mean? And I've lived my life this way I don't know why I still believe there's something I'm missing A simple conversation brought it all back The feeling never left me of more panic attacks Do you think I'll ever be? Do you see courage in me? Intangible longing and masculinity? A sense of distaste and something I lack A sense of loss of something I never had And all these words, they don't quite explain How I don't want to live ashamed A simple conversation brought it all back The feeling never left me of more panic attacks Do you think I'll ever be? Do you see courage in me? Or years of self hatred and femininity?
3.
Need 03:02
Deliverance from pain The ache in my rib cage I'm wandering around I'm ready to leave So close the door Swept up in the clean I am barely a want And never a need So please take my hand I'm coughing up blood And it'd be nice to hear your voice for once Should I get in my car? Would you do the same? Can't help but feel that I am always in the way This house is nausea And I'm nothing but sick Got six months to go And you've got six months to live So please take my hand I'm coughing up blood And it'd be nice to hear your voice for once
4.
Trouble waking up Trouble falling asleep I think I've cried a little too much More than I need Do you think it's the medication that's making me feel weird? Do you believe the same as me, that I'm not really here? I've been selfish With you lying in that hospital bed And anything I try to amend Is just worsening So I've started sleeping again But nothing stops the whirring in my head Even the knowledge that cancer runs in my family Doesn't seem to change me And here I am still thinking of myself As still a disappointment Still a disappointment
5.
Old Ghost 01:44
Heart attack on my birthday And lying there I have an hour to escape So light a match to my body weight I am hate But you are nothing to rely on And this old ghost Give me honesty It's not difficult To be honest with me Raised by love And hung by rope Raised by love And hung by rope

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Recorded live in May 2018

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released September 21, 2018

Written and performed by Alex Hall (Honey Pot)
Recorded by Tom Gilbert
Mixed and mastered by Will Cook
Artwork by Gwion Christmas
Bonus track recorded by Tom Stephens

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